Moving To Wordpress

Just wanted to let everyone know I have announcement to make pretty much the title says it all, after debating and thinking should I, you get in bad habit sticking to what you know. Seeing various bloggers I follow and my partner who's on wordpress made me want to take the leap even more. So I am saying bye to bloggerspot hello wordpress, please join me there loopysos.wordpress.com.

Farewell blogspot

xx

Winter Primark Haul

Stripy Jumper £6 (on sale rack) woman's department, the other 2 jumpers from men's section as I wanted big jumpers and something the woman's section lacks all skimpy, or really thin flimsy tops, often shop in men's department. Disney Winnie Pyjamas, underwear, facial wipes 2 for £1, baby wipes 2 for £1, emoji top.

I had a bit of cheeky retail therapy, went with my carer so had woman's input which I liked. Being bargain person that I am was hunt for jumpers as my wardrobe lacks them, very much in need right now, and me being me got side tracked saw emoji top, I had to be purchased as it's the same emojis I use all the time when messaging my partner in particular, so it was funny and cute, had to be mine. After my nightwear being cut up when rushed to hospital only right to treat myself to new set, wanted batgirl pj's as I love batman, but they didn't have my size, sad face, so went with Winnie as I love bit of Winnie have teddy of him in my place, also have one at my mum's funny enough. You think Valentines round the corner sexy lingerie be in there er no went with comfy cute underwear, call me boring but whatever. The other things like the wipes tend to get from there often because of the price, however do get wipes from other places too. You might see the clothing in outfit of the day or me just posting on instagram follow me on here. 

Have you been shopping recently, any bargains, drop me a comment and link to your blog post. As love being nosey and also looking at new and different blogs.

Having A Bad Week

This is going to be somewhat rant blog post so do apologise in advance, however for me this is outlet. Started Tuesday 3rd February coming from the bathroom really bad kidney pains started, so bad I passed out, my partner rang for ambulance, once the paramedics got here, partner had to tell them list of illnesses I have, the medication I take and what was happening, as I was unresponsive. In great deal of pain my partner told me I puked everywhere, which sometimes does happen when I am in great deal of pain. All the while I'm still not all there, as one of my illnesses is depression which is normal when you have chronic illness but for some reason one paramedic got it in her head that I over dosed, asking my partner load of questions, repeating questions. At that point had injection in my arm, in the ambulance tubes down my nose, down my mouth, unaware what's fully going on. Only fully woke up when in hospital (A&E), to an IV attached to me, being bombarded with questions of my medication when do I take them, have I taken more than I should, completely baffled too why, what's this got to do with my side pains, I honestly thought they was talking about someone else overdosed not thinking it was me they was on about. Mind boggling how paramedic came to the conclusion it was overdose. Guess what happened, my clothing got cut through, nurse told me had to cut through, so yay another piece of clothing destroyed... Returning home taxi took forever to turn up. Get home, been long day, get my dinner which is in pottery baking tray the thing breaks in my hands, which cuts both my hands, blood dripping everywhere, then top it off going to bed, my neighbour downstairs decides to be daily arsehole blast music out to the early hours.

Next day up first thing hospital appointment, taxi took long to arrive once again. Thursday morning building work downstairs same neighbour who blasts music all hours. Friday morning appointment with the GP, back on antibiotics, always seem to be on one form or another. More building work downstairs. And now just got a call that hospital appointment I have next week 3 days before appointment that they have rescheduled it for different day, so happens to be day I cannot attend, so yeah just been one of those weeks.

Surrey Market Fresh Bread

What we bought, 2 olive loafs, 2 savoury pretzels and 2 sweet pretzels.

Food glorious food, bread glorious bread I love you so. If you been following my blog for awhile you will know I like supporting small businesses/local business. As so many times these days we forget about markets and always resort to shopping purely in supermarkets, when we can find gems, fresh produce in markets, amongst other bargains to be had. When I got told about this new Surrey indoor eatery market, which is situated next to Surrey market (on the same road, strip), hey everyone knows I love food. Was in the area, would of been rude of me not to check out the place, didn't disappointment me, although it was end of the day, so they was getting ready to close up. Had quick nose around the stalls that was still open, there is upstairs but lot of steps for me so wasn't physically able to go look. Now let's get to the bread/pretzel stall, captured my greedy eyes, friendly staff that was able to guide us through the different breads, asking us what type of breads we enjoy recommending us ones we would enjoy. Needless to say the bread didn't disappoint, soft, type of bread that melts in your mouth, flavour is released and it's just wholesome.

Savoury pretzels, one with cheese and bacon (that was my one), other was like pizza pretzel, ended up being our dinner which worked out good for me, as didn't want big dinner. I thoroughly enjoyed mine, wasn't stingy on the cheese or bacon as you know some places can be tight with their ingredients, nice portion. Sweet pretzel could of been bit more sweet for me, but I blame it on having sweet tooth so for me lacked that sweetness, however still ate it all enjoyed it all the same, just like said earlier bit more for me personally. But now onto the price, all this under £5, bought all this for £2.40 yes, you eyes not misleading you. I think partly because they was closing up for the day they was getting rid of the goods, either way BARGAIN. Unfortunately they didn't have business card, as certain days they set up in Borough Market, so no info. However with permission took pictures (above), so if you ever in Croydon, check out Surrey St Eatery.

Are you bread fan?

Behind The Illness

This will be open frank post, I need to be honest as so many times people see pictures on instagram think you life is great or somewhat together. When really for me the pics above is true representation of me, however you cannot see the hot water that is beside me. Being in constant pain, everything tires me out, the dining out pics I have on instagram afterwards I get home I am exhausted, usually nap. With different health problems that's going on besides the norm, I go onto facebook to have my moan, then I see another person is pregnant and part of me is sadden, I be turning 30 this year and making me reflect even more, I wanted of achieved so much for myself, motherhood, a career, a home I bought. None of them I have achieved and does get me down, no one congratulates you for getting up each day, living on through the pain, so many times when I have seizures I ask can you take me now, so I don't have to suffer anymore, however it does strengthens me. And I completely understand I'm in no means in worse case scenario, I'm not dying or anything like that.

Just don't want to be invisible just like my illness is, will continue to be inspired to those who keep fighting, achieving their goals regardless of the struggle. I hope one day I can inspire somebody.

Honestly hitting the post button making me somewhat anxious will anyone even read this, or comment, as open myself. However someone out there might be feeling the same or similar, just know you not alone, hugs. x

PS- Yes I do snuggle with a teddy.

Lifting January Blues With Little Bit Of Coral. Outfit Of The Day

In my pocket mobile, right pocket water bottle so excuse the dodgy outlines.

Coral duster coat- New Look 

Hoodie- old

Jeans- TK Maxx

Trainers- Babycham

As you may be able to tell quite windy, with my 'Something about Mary' hairstyle going on in some of the pics, had to add them as hey it's me got to add some loopy into it. Bought this coral coat in the sales (online) from New Look, as needed pick me up after Christmas New Years, wanted something with colour, although it's on the thin side, can layer it up. This is me wearing it very casually, I will be looking forward to styling different outfits with my new beauty. 

Have you done outfit post recently? be great to see ya winter looks (leave links in the comment section). 

New Year. 2015 Here We Are

What can I say bit late to the party however Happy New Year everyone, hope you all had great Christmas. Won't be summing up 2014 as to be honest even though was highlights, very special moments, changes in my life, however health wise same crazy flare ups and other problems. Have I made any resolutions, the way my health is so unpredictable I just try to enjoy the things I can do, and less dwelling on what I cannot do, which for me is on going challenge as do battle with myself. Also keep raising awareness about how disability comes in all shapes and forms, mental health and of course fibromyalgia which in itself sets off other illnesses. Although I am just one voice, pretty loud voice if you ask anyone who knows me, I blame my family we all pretty loud although couple may disagree, but they are just in denial it's ok. Let's keep this blogging going, hopefully it grows.

Have you done new year resolution blog post, recap of 2014, share it in the comment section, love to read them, even if you haven't I am open to reading new blogs.

We Are Here!!!!

I was apprehensive doing this blog post, because I don't want this to turn into a rant post, however I have a voice and have noticed that there is big gap in the market. So often I see brands working with bloggers which is great however I don't see disabled bloggers, I love that there is plus size as we are all different sizes and shapes. When I see bloggers going on free excursions, holidays, clothes etc I think to myself I would love see people who are forgotten about, I want to be able to relate. For me when I travel I have to worry if the place is disabled friendly if not then need extra care. There is a gap, wish brands were more adventurous,  appeal to wider market that's so often forgotten about.

Want to see brands working with disabled bloggers, from wheelchair to walking aid to someone who can't walk much because of their illness. This isn't a campaign for me as would happily read blogs that features them working with brands. I want to see more variety, want it to be relate-able, want there to be more of presence. Disabled people are fashionable, not dead, I'm sure damn well want to travel, go to press events, where is the access...

Won't lie it angers me, frustrating and it's like you invisible, try being in disabled foot steps and see how insignificant you feel, yet mentally you still present. I am not holding back on how I feel, sorry if this post isn't profoundly intellectual way of doing it. But when you on antibiotics feeling like an alien is living inside your body you wouldn't be holding your words back either.

If there is other bloggers who feel the same please do share, and I hope I'm not some crazy lady in her room bitter about the world. As I love the fact that bloggers are influential, seeing the people I follow (not in stalker way of course) grow. There's place for everyone just remember we are here.

Advent Calender Time. His and Hers

It's that time of the year when you allowed to indulge throughout the month, not feel guilty about it, mind you I am in not that bracket of oh no too much calories type of girl, as I say everything in moderation, minus this month it's the time to be jolly. We decided on cheap cheerful advent calenders from Poundland, as sadly left it too late on Lego one we really wanted, sold out everywhere, sad face, lets not talk about it, I'm not bitter..

Of course Hello Kitty advent calender for me, it's me after all, and for him Star Wars as his huge fan of it. Funny enough my chocolate tastes better than his, perhaps needs sweetness for the kids, Star Wars more catered for adults, therefore more stale taste to it, I do find it funny identical doors and shapes of chocolate yet different tastes between the two of the advent calenders.

I must say beauty advent calenders seen on blogs, sadly not in my price range but I enjoy it from afar live through the bloggers as do like seeing what's behind each door, have you done advent calender post, send me links in the comment section, love to see yours.

Camden Coffee House

Jacket potato with coronation chicken, cheese, butter with side dish of salad.

Give me a comfy chair, tea, food and my sketchbook I'm a happy girl. Coffee camden house has nice relax chilled environment about it, passed the test of seating, as for me I always need comfy chair and enough leg room, very important for me otherwise I cannot be comfortable (it's not me trying to be snobby or anything it's just with my chronic pains makes it difficult to sit for prolonged times without the adequate support). I enjoyed my meal, just the right amount of food, sipped on my peppermint tea and then done quick sketch, so excuse if the drawing is a bit crappy. Before leaving I did have cheeky mocha to give me extra boost for my journey home, which I won't lie got my mocha approval. Overall thumbs up from me.

Hello Folkstone

The beauties of the coast, and all it's full glory. Had little break away at the end of September, thankfully the weather was still summery. Sand beach, pebble beach and harbour. Enjoying the surroundings, having the inner child come out of me playing in the sand, using my crutch to draw out things in the sand, yep I am big kid. Folkstone has art scene which there is whole road full of galleries. I know you waiting for it, what did I think of the galleries, well as I only walked passed them I can't give my opinion but what I saw from windows display, defiantly talented artists. Sadly don't have pictures otherwise would of been part of my picture diary of Folkstone. Downside about the area is that it's not disabled friendly, a lot of steep hills, which made it difficult for me, so wasn't able to fully explore the area in it's entirety. The harbour made me want to take up fishing granted all of 1 minute though as can't imagine waking up crack of dawn to fish, the smell, the mess, yeah I am not fisherman but the idea was there.

Now winter is upon us, are you someone who still visits the coast during the colder months?

Mini Primark Haul Plus Special Guest

I made YouTube video, oh yeah, with my special guest who stole the show...

Be great to hear from you guys, drop a comment, as do love hearing from you.

Outfit Of The Day/Night Going To Comedy Gig

Jacket: Diesel (very old), jumper: Primark, trousers: TK Maxx, shoes: Primark, heart bag: Christmas gift from my mum last year. On my nails: Rimmel, salon pro Kate range in shade hip hop.

It's been busy week with hospital appointments, so I'm glad to be posting this now. As you know by now I have to give a little back story to my post, the jumper I am wearing is new purchase as can you believe it I don't own jumpers, perhaps one or two but not one like this as the weather is changing thought it was time to buy something weather appropriate, not that I go around wearing little to nothing clothing just I more of case layer things. One it's long in length which I love, little lace adds more style to it. Then there's the next new purchase back to future shoes as my partner refers to it as, has large obsession with that movie(s), he spotted the shoes on sale, once I clocked on to it too, and it was in my size, yes, glory, had to be mine. Such comfortable simple stylish outfit, can still look good even when you feel like poo. Hopefully I be doing Halloween outfit, as I be actually dressing up, granted must remember to take pictures. So we shall see. 

What do you think to my outfit? have you done outfit post recently if so send me a link in the comments section. 

Omid Djalili Stand Up Comedy At Fairfield Halls

One of his jokes was him doing this, won't give the joke away, spoil it for others who be attending the show. 

So glad to be finally blogging about this event, as my health is bit crazy at the moment, what's new, I know.. Despite being extra poorly, worried wouldn't be able to go, literally was in bed all day until needed to get ready, slapped on some make up so I looked presentable, nice outfit well I thought it was, which will be in separate post outfit of the day. Bought the tickets months ago to Omid Djalili stand up gig as one day I was surfing the net as you do, in particular fairfield halls website looking at what's coming up, there I saw it beaming in front of my very own eyes my favourite comedian is doing a stand up, couldn't believe it, bought the tickets without no hesitation even if meant living on beans on toast for a month, ok being dramatic but you get the gist I was going end of. As so many times acts are at places that I can't get too, but I won't go on about that, let's get back to this blog post, what it's about, me going to Omid Djalili stand up show.

The warm up act was hilarious, note to people who are late to shows you going to get shamed out by the comedians, be prepared to be the butt of the joke, it's all light hearted fun. No lie I laughed from start to end, being in the front row I got to experience eye to eye contact, Omid himself saw me laughing which won't lie made me smile. However it gets better, after the show, got to meet Omid Djalili himself, as he was doing a signing of his book also signing tickets, taking pictures. When getting autograph Omid said to me I remember you from the audience, saw me laughing a lot and then we had quick chat as we took a picture together. I've grown up watching him whether it be on films, TV shows, stand up, here he was in the flesh, I hugged him. Without shadow of doubt one of the highlights of the year for me. Glad I was able to drag my butt as it was great evening. Can't wait to read his autobiography, as not started it yet. So can't review that. Even now when looking at the pictures I smile.

Coming Or Going

My presence online hasn't been much as normal, can't say my life has been crazy hectic that's why, however just been ill a lot recently with other things, nothing life threatening don't worry, no "don't cry for me Argentina" moments. And if I'm honest my mood is like don't know if I am coming or going. My confidence as whole, self doubting myself hugely, but at the same time still determined, strange, right. I started this blog as wanted outlet for myself, somewhere I could escape, distraction and to put forward portfolio of me. I've been hesitate to blog because feel myself prejudging so much, instead of just letting it be. As they say we are our biggest critic. I needed to do this blog post as it's cathartic, yes my confidence is low, but it's working progress, however still don't take for granted the support I have, as too many times we see the perfect imagery of people's lives, with me I want to be open, whether it's me in my hospital gown, having a moan, or celebrating the good times, for me I want to be diverse.

The picture above taken when I was in Folkstone, just how my mood is the tide coming in and out, symbolises the mood, also the beauty of the sea, seeing beauty within yourself, wow, deep, not taken my antibiotics yet so I'm not trippy, haha.

Hows your mood?

The Redoubt Fortress & Military Museum

One of the places we visited whilst in Eastbourne was The redoubt fortress & military museum, which so happened to have a Roman historical event for the day that included period costumes and a gladiatorial re-enactment.
The museum itself is a sprawling lesson of the fortress' 200 year history from the Napoleonic era to World War II, beautifully set hallways with offset rooms filled with treasures from officer uniforms to medals, swords and paintings. There's a lot to learn for young and old, many interactions for children such as places to let their creativity shine with chalk and whiteboards to interactive areas such as phones with actual recordings of shellfire of the world wars. The top of the fortress provides amazing views of Eastbourne's beach and a perfect place to see the centre of the fortress which on our particular day included a Roman re-enactment which was fun to watch while also being informative. All-in-all the fortress is a must-see for anyone visiting Eastbourne so while down set a couple of hours aside and take a look for yourselves.