Birthday Outfit Of The Day

What I wore on my birthday- Saturday 20th July

Dress: Boohoo

cardigan/hoodie: Miss Selfridge

Bag: DKNY 

Floral shoes: Sports Direct

Red heart studs: Sister Vintage

Black heart necklace: Claire's 

Medical ID bracelet still going strong

And Hello Kitty Lip Balm hanging off my bag

I never wear anything short without leggings, tights, long socks, or shorts underneath since god knows when so me with naked bare legs out, go me, for the longest time I have felt self conscious of my thighs as I had muscle wastage (big dips) just before I became seriously ill, also before that just being silly girl thinking my legs were fat. Sorry had to mention it you know I always have to give you background story with everything.

This weekend just gone I aged by a number, turning 21 again (although I am more closer to the 30 mark but ssh it's our secret). There be separate post on what I did on the day, but for now you can enjoy me being well Loopy with my poses that could knock out any model in glossy mag ok that's far fetched but who cares I am still smiling. 

Back Pain... Arghhhh

The bane of my life even before suffering with Fibromyalgia I would get back aches, since young teen, which  would double in pain when that time of the month would come along, so I am no stranger to the dreaded pain. Along the way I've been advised by dozens of docs physiotherapists etc. I am curious what do you do to relieve back pain or what helps you (besides the obvious ice pack, heat pads, sprays, creams), what type of exercises helps you whether it's yoga, swimming, cycling, cardio etc?
This is just for my own personal research, so would love as much feedback as possible. Thank you ;)

Excuse my badly drawn illustration, just tongue and cheek advert which I done for a laugh.

Caribbean Food From Tooting Market

Everyone always talk about the big markets in London, however plenty of small markets that can be gems whether its food clothes there is market for it. What's great about Tooting Market is having variety of cultures under one roof from Portuguese to Caribbean which I be discussing in this blog post.

I love me some Caribbean food I am bias as that's part of my background. Walking through the market and my greedy eyes was like yes I need me some nibbles from this place, unfortunely didn't write down the name of the Caribbean take out as I was just focused on the food, and having banter with the worker, however it's easy to find once you step into Tooting Market, so lets just pretend for sec I'm not bad blogger. The service was great, attentive which for me is bonus of course not to the point where its over the top or invasive. The food, right again bad blogger slap on the hand, I scoffed down my food without taking pics sorry. However still can tell you how it tasted, our order dumplings, carrot&ginger juice- oh that had kick to it, when that ginger hit you oh my, chicken pattie- the patties wasn't crumbly as sometimes the pastry falls apart when you buy patties from Caribbean bakeries/restaurants/takeaways , chocolate & coconut cake with rum in it- only had bite of that as I'm not big fan of coconut, but still could appreciate the taste, salmon & banana plantain- simply delicious, you would assume that combo doesn't work but seriously fits well, worth having a try and going just for that, just typing about it is making me want it, mmm (daydream). . I felt satisfied with my food and would definitely go back.

Finally grew some balls not literally of course posted whole profile of myself (pic above) so I'm no model but who cares, not going to photoshop myself to look perfect nah bullocks to that. Putting that aside, are you someone that visits you're local markets or other little markets? let me know.

Failure. Tough On Myself

I've been missing in the blogsphere, not posted, hardly read any blogs. It's been a tough month. Just every time I go to blog I either get really emotional just shut off the blog as it reminds me of dear person that passed away who always loved my blog posts, click here to read my previous post explaining.
Wanted to do outfit of the day posts but all the pics taken I looked fat, my face round chubby, just having issues with myself. So that was a no no..

I am going to be real honest, I feel like a failure at the moment, sometimes I feel defeated like my illness is winning consuming me. My achievements these days is able to wash my own hair myself, that's bonus for me. I hate how my emotions can be real intense, erratic, emotional mess when problem arises. Amongst other things but we be here all day, ain't nobody got time for that. You know how some people can be tough on themselves, well I am one those people, if you not guessed already , hehe.

Are you hard on yourself? let me know
If you got some encouraging things to say that be much appreciated ;)

I Hate Goodbyes

How or where do I begin no words can describe, my role model, my friend, my confidant, true inspirational caring person to me and many others. I called him Grandpa as he stepped in the role, a Grandpa I never had, a treasure to me. Finding out he passed away my heart instantly sank, he always knew just what to say, truly miss him. Less than 24 hours another death, don't want to go into details about it as I prefer not to. Also dear friend of mine looks like a relative of his is going to pass away. So A week of death.

Thankfully through support of the people in my little circle, get me through this and prayer.

Drawing/Painting is bouquet

I hate goodbyes

Love And Miss You
My Angels
xx

Lets Have A Cup Of Coffee At Matthews Yard

Coat: Sports Direct (old), T-shirt McLaren F1: Boyfriends, Leggings:Primark (old), Bunny Ring: Dainty Roses, Rose Ring:bought from a blogger, Nails: Rimmel Pro Ultra Violet

Riding Boots: Next

Found somewhere that fit me like a glove, somewhere that mixes creativity with food and drink. Art studio spaces, live music, chill, laid back feel, but still motivating as you can just get on with work. Their coffee is good, strong boost. What I love it is independent business, so already had my thumbs up, as we tend get caught up in big franchises, not that there is a problem, but it's great to explore.

Going there made me want to just get my sketchbook out, my creativity juices was bubbling which don't happen often, so I took that as a sign, still have the artist in me, I know cliché, but when you going through tough health times it's nice to feel that spark. Would be awesome to exhibit, I think it would reunite my love passion truly and confidence.

Back to Matthews Yard I've yet to sample their food, but the foodie I am sure when I can I will, no doubt share with you, not the food it's self I'm afraid sorry, also want to go to live gigs that they have there, so we shall see. If you in the area of Croydon, or not to far worth checking out.

Matthews Yard website click here

PS- Not sponsored blog post or review for them.

Vlog Blog

I know the quality is crap, just don't have the energy to get out my camera out, set it up etc, I just wanted to talk and express myself.

Lets chat x