Behind The Illness

This will be open frank post, I need to be honest as so many times people see pictures on instagram think you life is great or somewhat together. When really for me the pics above is true representation of me, however you cannot see the hot water that is beside me. Being in constant pain, everything tires me out, the dining out pics I have on instagram afterwards I get home I am exhausted, usually nap. With different health problems that's going on besides the norm, I go onto facebook to have my moan, then I see another person is pregnant and part of me is sadden, I be turning 30 this year and making me reflect even more, I wanted of achieved so much for myself, motherhood, a career, a home I bought. None of them I have achieved and does get me down, no one congratulates you for getting up each day, living on through the pain, so many times when I have seizures I ask can you take me now, so I don't have to suffer anymore, however it does strengthens me. And I completely understand I'm in no means in worse case scenario, I'm not dying or anything like that.

Just don't want to be invisible just like my illness is, will continue to be inspired to those who keep fighting, achieving their goals regardless of the struggle. I hope one day I can inspire somebody.

Honestly hitting the post button making me somewhat anxious will anyone even read this, or comment, as open myself. However someone out there might be feeling the same or similar, just know you not alone, hugs. x

PS- Yes I do snuggle with a teddy.

Lifting January Blues With Little Bit Of Coral. Outfit Of The Day

In my pocket mobile, right pocket water bottle so excuse the dodgy outlines.

Coral duster coat- New Look 

Hoodie- old

Jeans- TK Maxx

Trainers- Babycham

As you may be able to tell quite windy, with my 'Something about Mary' hairstyle going on in some of the pics, had to add them as hey it's me got to add some loopy into it. Bought this coral coat in the sales (online) from New Look, as needed pick me up after Christmas New Years, wanted something with colour, although it's on the thin side, can layer it up. This is me wearing it very casually, I will be looking forward to styling different outfits with my new beauty. 

Have you done outfit post recently? be great to see ya winter looks (leave links in the comment section). 

New Year. 2015 Here We Are

What can I say bit late to the party however Happy New Year everyone, hope you all had great Christmas. Won't be summing up 2014 as to be honest even though was highlights, very special moments, changes in my life, however health wise same crazy flare ups and other problems. Have I made any resolutions, the way my health is so unpredictable I just try to enjoy the things I can do, and less dwelling on what I cannot do, which for me is on going challenge as do battle with myself. Also keep raising awareness about how disability comes in all shapes and forms, mental health and of course fibromyalgia which in itself sets off other illnesses. Although I am just one voice, pretty loud voice if you ask anyone who knows me, I blame my family we all pretty loud although couple may disagree, but they are just in denial it's ok. Let's keep this blogging going, hopefully it grows.

Have you done new year resolution blog post, recap of 2014, share it in the comment section, love to read them, even if you haven't I am open to reading new blogs.